I wanna be whole
and strong and healthy
These little hands
need all of me
I wanna be whole
and strong and steady
Maybe if I could just
split myself into three
I wanna be whole
and strong and present
I just want to see them smile
and time moves so quickly
I wanna be whole
and strong and certain
To just carry them close
without having to count the cost
But I am only one—
worn down, worn thin
Stretched across hours
that never quite fit
Never enough of me
to fill every need
Yet still—
I am the one
I am the one
they need and seek
when the day ends
and they crave comfort
I am the one
they reach for
without even thinking
they rest their heads
against my chest
as if my breathing
can steady theirs
I am the one
even when I don’t feel like me
I am the one
Not because I am whole
or strong or healthy
or steady or present
or certain
but because I choose to be here
A little life update:
My sister-in-law tied the knot two weeks ago. Hence, the updated flower photo. She was actually my maid of honor when I got married. And I happily agreed to be her bridesmaid—a first for me! They had a heartwarming ceremony at our local church, and our girls were her flower girls. Selah, thankfully, walked down the aisle (albeit leaving her flowers at the entrance arch). Shiloh, though, was sound asleep with her nanny on one corner of the sanctuary. My husband teared up a little when he saw her sister walk down the aisle. She was radiant and beautiful, as brides are on their wedding day! And when I saw the look of love in her eyes after they had kissed for the first time, I knew and felt that she is truly, very happy.
I have so many things to share, but just so I could send this out before it forever becomes just a draft, I’ll save them for later.
Hope things are sweet on your side of the table. Love and love always. ♡